he watched me
and i felt it all
there's nothing like it
as beautiful as the sun
i think i touched heaven
with my depression
and he touched me
with...
beautiful
yet there is no soup
for the angel
who has seen my
darkness
and there is no joy
for he who has not...
is it wonderful?
only if it feels
like...
beautiful
just getting by
but you don't know
me that well
because i can't tell who
YOU are
to know me is 
to...
beautiful
that's okay
it doesn't matter
i'm waiting for the nothing
that will never
come
i blur my eyes
only seeing the gray
of your message
believing that the
emptiness will kill me
but really can't hurt me
without...
beautiful
but don't forget about
me
i'll be crying for you--
beautiful lawrence...
beautiful cruz...    
beautiful mendoza...